Amrita

Full moon

amrita — Sat, 12 Nov 2011 00:56:01 +0000

Seeing silhouettes against the bright moonlight.. Been a while since I felt the light of the moon fall on my face. reminds me of sleeping on a terrace counting the stars to sleep, with nothing to worry about… ( except the mosquitoes of course )

The best things in my life…

amrita — Thu, 08 Sep 2011 15:10:39 +0000

At the risk of sounding repetitive (if you read my ‘About’ section which is now a couple of years old):

Some things, small and generally unnoticed, that I am so thankful for:

Family, and a set of very limited friends, to call my own.
The unconditional love of a mother (and the irritants that come with it).
Ice creams, chocolate, and coffee.
Seeing raindrops, snowflakes (yes they are actually star-shaped).
Spell check that corrects ‘icecreams’ to ice creams’ or starshaped to star-shaped
Dinner with friends in a decent restaurant.
Badminton.
Window shopping (and some impromptu shopping when I just have to buy whatever it is I’m buying).
Plants, trees, flowers and birds.
Teddy bears: the soft toy versions.
My cozy room (I have shifted tons of rooms now )
A decent education and ability to express my happiness and frustrations (mostly trivial) in an ‘educated’ manner.
My wardrobe filled with ‘fashionable’ and everyday-wear clothes, and the fact that it keeps changing to be specific, just the luxury of having something to wear.

Working out in a gym.
The sweet taste of mangoes in summer (long since I enjoyed it’s sweet taste).
The warmth of the sun.
Warm woollen clothes in winter (so I can appreciate the beauty of snow).
A car to travel in, even if it’s not my own.
Reading amazing books (so many people are deprived of an education).
A warm blanket when I am cold.
Food when I am hungry (even in excess at times).
A family that annoyingly pressurizes me to get ‘settled’ for the best.
A roof over my head.
That I never get anything easily (NEVER), especially if I want it real bad. So I know the value of what it means to me, and am humbled by the experience.

Some other additions that make me even luckier than several people out there:

No witnessing violence or bloodshed in my lifetime. (forget seeing it daily)
Not seeing a loved person die or killed in front of my eyes.
Not being physically or emotionally abused by family.
Not suffering any handicaps or having an incurable disease.
The five basic senses (doubtful of the sixth one) to appreciate the little things in life.
Having people to talk to, when I am sad or lonely.
Not having to suffer from the tragedies of old age (not yet).

When I was a little kid:
Food
Icecream
Toys
Sunlight
Rain
Variety of pencils and erasers (which I would lose almost daily)
Friends to fight with, and then play with
1 rupee collection of hard-earned 10 paisa coins, to buy 10 paisa chocolates – called pocket money back in those days

The list may seem silly to me a couple of months later as I read it, but I’m still thankful for the little things I’m blessed with. It’s a different thing that one has always strived to be better.

Sadness

amrita — Thu, 28 Jun 2007 21:55:43 +0000

I feel a feeling,
Somewhere inside the core of my heart
I know that this sweet feeling
Will never come out apart.

I can’t express it,
It’s beautiful, yet its sad,
It’s like a bad dream,
I don’t want it to come true.

It’s like a mother’s tender touch,
That takes away her child’s pain,
But for now, it’s just too much,
And it cannot be explained,

I can hear sad whispers,
And I want to reply and say,
I want all emotions and these sad memories
To simply go away.

- Written on 17th June, 2002

A summer evening / night

amrita — Sat, 09 Jun 2007 14:09:18 +0000

On a summer evening, felt like saying a prayer,
Feelings running deep, waiting to be shared.
Ambitions aimed high, they show up bare,
Just like the clouds amidst the sun rays.

The sun sets, its beauty heals hearts that break,
A small bud blossoms, only when it is spared.

As the moonlight creeps in ,
The world goes to sleep.
The stars are twinkling,
From the skies they shyly peep.

Reality is soon to be a memory,
Promises in the air,
Dewdrops next morning,
Its peaceful everywhere.

My first remembrances of U.S.A

amrita — Sun, 03 Jun 2007 16:36:45 +0000

Today, I finally find the time to actually write this down. Life has always been a journey for me. This journey started off with my friends and parents telling me goodbye and wishing me good luck, and me sitting on a plane to go to a foreign country.
I had no idea whether I still wanted to continue with this. I just wanted to cancel everything and come back to India. But there was the curiosity of seeing a new country, the hope of making new friends for life, having fun and getting a degree.
So there I sat, in that plane. I made a friend there right away. We spoke throughout the journey, and when the flight got delayed, we even stayed together.
I never saw her again! When I landed at GSP, I struggled to keep tears at bay, and I wont say how successful I was. Seniors picked me up and took me to the place which was supposed to be my home for another 2 years, CLEMSON. The drive was a rather uninteresting one, except for the conversation we had. The trees were withered, there was a sense of depression.
When I reached Clemson, people around me were helpful everywhere ..
Ok, let me explain helpfulness here. Help came in from all angles, must say everyone was an angel here, I slowly but surely made some friends. One actually learns the meaning and depth of the word ‘Thank you’ here… especially when a total stranger helps you out, and becomes a good friend later…
Well, so much for my first experience of U.S.A

Inspiring…

amrita — Sat, 25 Nov 2006 05:10:39 +0000

Read this somewhere, loved every word of it.

“If you think you are beaten, you are.
If you think you dare not, you dont
If you like to win, but you think you cant
It is almost certain you wont.
If you think you’ll lose, you’re lost
For out of the world we find,
Success begins with a person’s will
It’s all in the state of mind
If you think you are outclassed, you are.
You’ve gotta think high to rise
You’ve got to be sure of yourself before
You can ever win a prize
Life’s battles dont always go
To the stronger or faster man
But soon or late the one who wins is the one who thinks HE CAN! “